I just started around 5 different posts today... publishing none but this. Why? Because I'm scared.
The internet used to be my way of expressing myself anonymously, but to a point I did want to share some ideas with people I knew... but people who know me will no doubt judge me based on what I write.
Sometimes I like to be judge; I play out situations to be judged. Other times I really want to just do away with the mask of my life and be truthful. But the truth always carries such power; and often times it's deadly. And there's a lot of opinions that I have that I'd want to share but I'm always scared it'll offend.
I fell back on this previous alias with hopes to stay a secret, but I'm not so good at keeping my own secrets.
At this point comes another time when I just have to trust myself. And just remember that there are countless other people who don't know me. It's a comforting thought.
Comes back to the whole 'if they are your friends, they will understand', I suppose.
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